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well ya i went down for jonathan. isnt that a fucking burn???? o wells but ya uhmmm whats up everyone i havent been on a comp for like ever cuz im grounded and all but whatevers. ya well im ganna go to JAZZY'S site cuz ya i havent talked to her in a while. I SAW HER TODAY IT WAS AWSOME.
You are a black dragon! Master of the shadows and nightmares. People claim you to be evil but you're just misunderstood. You just want to be alone.
You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source you are a being of great mystery. Constantly drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal your brokenness. You have come to believe that you are the only one you can rely upon for constancy and safety that you need. But those who know how to see you find enchanting beauty in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to them that you should flee, for their arms are an open haven where your true light can finally thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create)
well im here doing nothing... wanna know something that sux? when me an johnathan had been going out for a couple of months after me and sandra(jonathans mom),had worked everything out, she told me she wished that jonathan was going out with corrina. that made me so mad, and then on jonathand b-day (saturday) when sandra was going to tale corrina home she hugged her and said she wished she had a daughter in law like her! ouch right to the heart man. that really fucking sucked. but whatevers i guess ill never bee good enough for sandra even though i try so hard.. wel whatevers im out.....
|ok well im in 1st period and im doing some women history shit. im not sure who im ganna do but its ganna be someone cool. uhm im thinking about doing cleopatra. but whatevers jon is sitting here reading this but ya! um im ganna go nothing to write|
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|ok well its 10:55pm and im sitting here thinkin about life and everything in it.. god im such a horrible g.f. to johnny. i try so hard to be good but i always fuck it somehow... i feel like switching schools, but im not only becuase im with johnny.... i feel so bad cuz i have done some horrible things to him. he deserves so much more. why am i like this? i think my grandma is going to die, and i cant deal with that. to many things going on in my life right now.. i dunno why but i feel so left out... well i cried infront of my counceler im so stupid. i hate crying theres no point. but whatevers.. ya well hopefully me and jonathan dont break up cuz it feels like we are going to. i really dont want us to. i love him so much but i think hes falling out of love with me. why does life have to be so difficult? i need jonathan so much. if it wernt for him id be gone, there would be no reasone for me to be here n e more. im starting to think that theres no other reason for me to live other than jonathan. but once he figures out he disserves better it will be my time to go. i dont do very well with change. im going to be going on zoloft soon. i get pissed off so easily why is that? wanna know something weird? i cant remeber anything from my past. nothing from when i was about now till when i was little. i dunno. ur supposed to know know stuff from when ur like 5 years old and on right? i cant sleep and im ganna stop eating becuase im getting fatter than i am. im sorry for being a poser, a bitch ,and everything else everyone doesnt like about me. im sorry for anyone ive hurt. the whole alexandra thing is so stupid i dunno maybe its my fault like everything else. so alexandra i know you dont read this but im appologizing. im not very good at expressing my feelings to anyone im better at writting them down. i feel like im being judged by everyone. but the weird thing is i judge everyone to. im enjoing volleyball but i know i suck and im prolly only ganna be on JV. but hey im trying. ive been happy then depressed and then happy and then depressed... grrrz i hate this fluctuation. my neck hurts...i need to work out more. im ganna join softball with salina. and im ganna try really hard to get all my grades up so more studying for me.... i try so hard but its never good enough for anyone. well ya this is way to much writting.. and ya know whatevers u prolly, whoever reads this, are done reading so much bullshit. laterz|
|Hey im fucking bored out of my mind sitting here doing nothing. im in miss witucki's class... well lets see.. um..theres nothing really to say.... Jazmines being kinda mean but whatevers|